Aspirin overdose (OD) can cause death but the amount of fatal overdose will vary from person to person. Generally 30+ grams aspirin works well but be on the safe side and use more for your suicide attempt. Better to get the soluble ones because consuming too many tablets can cause vomiting. It can kill you in hours or it can even take days to die. Dissolve them in alcohol and drink. Keep some alcohol free of aspirin and once you have drunk all the dissolved aspirin, drink the left over alcohol quickly while you are conscious. Taking 1 or 2 antihistamine tablets one or two hours before the aspirin dosage will keep you away from vomiting the stuff out.
As said earlier, fatal dose varies significantly and hence, instead of death, you can end up having a severely damaged liver and heavily damaged pair of kidneys. You can hear strange noises in your ear and end up with projectile vomiting after nearly 10 hours. Better to stay away from hospital for a couple of days. Possibility of internal bleeding in stomach or upper intestine is also there. A bit scary but, remember, you wanna die and some physical pain is OK!
As said earlier, fatal dose varies significantly and hence, instead of death, you can end up having a severely damaged liver and heavily damaged pair of kidneys. You can hear strange noises in your ear and end up with projectile vomiting after nearly 10 hours. Better to stay away from hospital for a couple of days. Possibility of internal bleeding in stomach or upper intestine is also there. A bit scary but, remember, you wanna die and some physical pain is OK!
heard somewhere you can buy nembutal from a mexican vet only bummer is, you can`t take it out of mexico with you or post it home
ReplyDeleteSounds like a very painful death. Starting to think this might be the one for me. Who knows thou, maybe I will let my imaginary friend come out and save me from my depression, rather than taking ownership of my own life. Hopefully not, I think id rather die painfully on my own than have my imaginary friend judge me while I considred killing myself. Im hoping for a hole in my stomach now, so I die a bit faster but get to enjoy my stomach acid eating away at myself. Sounds truly awesome, rotten.com will love the video.
Deletein my experiance cercumstances are everything, and when you have no power of your own sometimes the only circumstances that appear to have a good ending is suicide. my circumstances have put me there, but dont just do this because you are having a bad day. only do this if you truly must.
DeleteAre you sure you can buy Nembutal from a Mexican vet? I don't think so, not anymore. Please confirm, though. I am desperate for Nembutal, if you have any idea where I can get it.
DeleteThanks ...before you judge people who are about to commit suicide ask yourself what your living for cause some of us have nothing and are tired of being thrown on the ground and constantly trampled on .
DeleteVeronica Murphy
DeleteI totally agree with you 100% on your comment. I feel there are some people that are born a mistake on this earth.I knew in the 3rd grade i wouldn't never have a happy life and i would always fight to be like and loved. I have been pushed around and ignored and made fun of all my life. My family, well no comment but i am the black sheep thats for sure not like i asked to be one. every night i go to bed i wanna die and everyday i get up i wish i would have died in my sleep. its a nasty cycle for me.i don't want pity and i don't want a bible huger to tell me god loves me and life is GRAND. around 4 years ago i took Antifreeze and it was painless or i dont remember if it was. but i blacked out and 3 weeks later i was out of my coma. i almost made it out of this life. the fking problem was my buddy came over and saved me from death and i was pissed. if he had not came over that not i would not be here talking now. Now i have been drinking Antifreeze again but it taste bad and i think they change the flavor bc it was sweet and it didnt make me sick b4. but now i have to find the original Antifreeze bc the new stuff is gross as all hell. but i am still trying to exit from here. trust me Antifreeze was the best way to end it and there was no pain at all. you drink enough of it and you black out and that's that.
If you think i am joking give it a try and youll see how wonderful it was. but get the original kind and mix it with pop or what ever bc it is very sweet already...
I understand the trampling my wife hates me. my family hates me so fuck it I might as well end my life
Deleteif you are still out there,hang on.Take the steering wheel of your life in your own hands and LIVE! If you feel no one loves you,start to love some one...even if it is a bird or a dog. Live!
Deleteit gets better. life is worth the fight. i am so serious. please anyone reading this that feels suicidal, stay here and fight it out.
ReplyDeleteI'm a a pacifist. I'd rather not fight and suffer in this cruel world.
DeleteBullshit. It never gets better.
DeleteYou have no clue what Hell I went through. This is the only that can help.
DeleteI have tried to commit suicide twice. I od twice mixing prescription pills with drugs & alcohol. I had a hard childhood i was severely depressed & was tormented by the memories of childhood abuse. I was a starved tortured raped child locked in the basement. I never had a mother that loved me. My mother tried to kill me i was in foster homes bumped around from place to place.My own family never accepted me because i was half black why family was white a was involved in the KKK. I had night terrors for years. Then i was guinea pig. I was spent my youth in & out of hospitals due to bad reaction with my meds. So i just wanted to die now I'm 28 years old & i never thought that i would make it to 20. I got saved i found Jesus now i have peace and joy in my life. I was angry with God asking him why did he let these things happen to me. These things happen to me because of the calling i have in my life to minister my own personal testimony of what happened to me and i'm not the only one that has suffered in this way. I'm sorry for all of you & truly understand and know your pain. I want you to know you can overcome this you can defeat this demon called depression please don't take your life. I overcame this & can to. Please i invite you to come to the Prince of Peace Jesus he healed the sick and the broken hearted. You will knw peace, love , and joy. Will u please except my invention?
DeleteHow do you find all this great stuff all of a sudden
DeleteI told God I was tired i od twice and fell asleep & i wouldn't let me die. So i prayed & ask God to give take my life & Gods will was for me to live so i ask God to heal me i started reading the bible taking comfort in scriptures then i found meet a man who told me to go to church. So i did i put God in the center of life and never had felt the spirt of depression suicide lefted me because of the prayer form my church family. Depression is not an illness, depression is a demon. Depression comes when people r being mistreated and abuse. Evil bring forth more evil. The only way to defeat evil is God. That is why i testified to you that God turn my life around & he will turn yours around to.
DeleteJesus is the way the truth & the light. James 4:8 in bible say draw near to God and he will draw near to you.
i have asked jesus too many times times into my life to remember.nothing happened.gods too hard to reach.its just up and down and more down than up..im so tired of living
Deletewhy r you on this site...r u some sort of activist for suicidal people
DeleteI found my depression demon today. We went out for a walk together and considered all sorts of ways to die. Then I came across my local church...laughed my ass off and went to a library and read to get rid of my ignorance. Really helped. Now when I kill myself it will be because I have a mental health problem and not because I refused to learn how to read factual books. I hope there is a hell, so I don't have to be kept next to ignorant people.
DeleteDONT FORGET THE TRIED AND PROOVEN METHOD OF SUICIDE BY COP , JUST WALK IN TO A DENNYS RESTURANT WITH A FAKE GUN AND SAY HOLD UP!! BUT MAKE SURE THE POLICE MANS CAR IS IN PARKING LOT FIRST . IF THAT DONT WORK TRY A BANK THAT HAS A GUARD ON DUTY , WHEN THEY SAY DROPIT , JUST POINT THE GUN AT THEM AND SAY BANG
DeleteYOU ARE FULL OF SHIT.....THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME HERE......IM TIRED, IM TIRED OF FALLING INTO THE SAME CYCLES....IM TIRED OF BEING ALONE WHILE EVERYONE ELSE FINDS LOVE AND HAPPINESS...IM TIRED OF BEING GOD OR WHOEVER TO TAKE ME OR AT LEAST SHOW ME A SIGN THINGS WILL GET BETTER, IM READY TO LEAVE! IF IM A COWARD THEN IM A COWARD, IF IM SELFISH THEN IM SELFISH ID RATHER BE A SELFISH COWARD THAN A SCREAMING IN PAIN HERO ANYDAY
DeleteHi. I believe that we are on the same situation right now..I lost faith & hope that everything will be alright..I commited suicide at countless times but I'm still alive..I want the pain to go away but it just keeps on lingering to me each day..I'm now getting weaker physically & tormented mentally..Help me die..
DeleteNope. Everyone has their own private hell. A place we can go and vent. Or do whatever as long as we don't hurt anyone else. Own private hell. We all do. And we all have the power to overcome it.
DeleteOnly, sometimes the hell is not so private. Sometimes the hell is all around you. Even in you.
My point? There's a difference.
Only when you know there is no place for you in this world, should you make your exit. Until then, hang on. Hang on to whatever you got, with everything you got.
Some people have nothing left to hold on to but isolation, pain and ridicule.
Until you reach there, there's hope.
- DMW
i think this is the most beautiful thing i've ever read - EMJA
DeleteI am depressed. My wife left me for another man and had always accused me of cheating on her...when it was probably her who was cheating on me the whole time we were together. Any ways, I feel pretty bummed out right now. Was thinking about suicide, but after reading some of these posts...I realized that suicide is not necessary. I have a girlfriend in Guatemala who is going to come visit me here in the states soon. I wish you all the best of luck. Even though I feel saddend, I don't think this course of action is appropriate.
ReplyDeleteDepression is a real illness. It's not your fault. You don't choose to feel like it's not worth living. You would not feel that way if you were well, and not ill with depression. It's a killer illness. Don't let it kill you. Some of the smartest scientists and doctors on the planet have spent years searching for a way to end depression. Take advantage of what they have found out. If you have resisted taking an anti-depressant, isn't it worth it to just try it? Give your brain a chance to be normal. An anti-depressant can balance the neurotransmitters in your brain, and lift the depression. Some people take thyroid medication because their thyroid isn't working optimally, making them feel tired. It's very similar. It would be a sad mistake to kill yourself due to an imbalance of brain chemicals. Anti-depressants saved my life, and the lives of at least 2 of my friends who were close to death. Get help. Call 911 now and tell them you don't want to kill yourself. They will help you.
ReplyDeletefuck yourself. i have lived with depression and anxiety since i was a kid. i have been raped, neglected, abused physically mentally emotionally and sexually. dont tell people its just an illness. that it goes away. and dont hou fucking say to take pills to make it better. as a teen the doctors shoved pills at me to make it better and all it did was make it worse. do i really want to die, fuck no. but i dont see any other way to escape the pain. and dont tell me that people love me and care about me and they will help me, because though a few might... they cant make it better and they cant make it stop.
Deletei had the same kind of childhood like yourself, my parents died when i was little, i went into foster care and endured sexual, physical and emotional abuse. Hope used to keep me going but i no longer have that anymore. i see a therapist, the first 2 yrs were good, it kept me sane, but i recently broke down and said she can't help me anymore, i've got too many issues, she thinks because i've survived a lot of shit that i'm a survivor, but i'm tired, people really do suck, and i can't think straight anymore. if there is a god, he would take me out naturally so i don't hurt my loved ones. my whole life has been shit and i want it all to end.
DeleteI am a 20 yr old female. As a child my mother was never around cause she worked 2jobs to pick up my fathers slack who left her for a younger women who was a dope head. My brother would physically mentally & sexually abuse me. He would tie me to plastic chairs & use baseball bats to knock the legs off if he hit my legs it would make him happy he would hold me down & open my mouth to give him oral sec when I was 4 he made me watch porn with him while he pleasures himself & he tried to rape me multiple times but only succeeded once he would make fun of me & call me names I have 2 older sisters who he would abuse as well. The memory's haunt me everytime I close my eyes. I cant even comfortably enjoy sex. I never told anyone until last yr I broke down to my bf of 5 yrs but he just looked at me crazy & used it as another excuse as to why he didn't like my family. I think after so long of holding it inside, the pain just bursted out & has been driving me completely insane. I have a 2yr old daughter who means the world to me, shes the only reason I haven't blew my brains out. It just seems like no matter how much I cry or how many times a try to commit suicide I still wake up in this fucked up world. I asked God since I was a kid to please set me free from this terrible place full of demons & liars & cheaters & mean ass people & he never responds to me. Ive begged him to end my life while I was covered in bruises gashes & blood. Why have I suffered so much what is my purpose in life? To suffer? What the hell did I do to swerve such a punishment I was only a child. I survived a tumor that was touching my brain only to suffer this life why? I always think I was suppose to die. God gave me a tumor so I can die but the devil said no I want to have my fun with her. So now I walk around with this hole in my face where my left eye is suppose to be, everyone views me as a freak & thinks I'm a cold hearted bitch who never has anything good to say but WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I? WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK THEY'RE SO PERFECT LIKE THEY'RE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME?!?!! Everyone I know hasn't been through all of the terrible things I've been through & it seems like they're life is so much better than mine. I'm so tired of the same shit diff day life. My bf just admitted to seeing other women throughout our relationship Idk I feel like i've wasted 6 yrs of my life with a man who is equivalent to the devil just a lying snake in the grass who saw me pass by & wanted to have his fun with me. I just can't help but feel like everyone who has claimed they loved me or who was suppose to love me really doesn't. My mother my father my brother my sisters my bf my friends is the love all a lie who can I really trust who really cares whoshould I want to live for besides my daughter who I feel will be better off without me anyways. Who wants an depressed freak for a mom. Will I ever get better? Is this just the beginning to a lonely life. Is this a sign that I'm suppose to be alone forever. Can I even be alone in death or will the devil be there waiting for me with open arms? Fuck everything.
DeleteIf a few people will help you out of the goodness of their heart and nothing else, Dude, that may be all you need. Give them a shot. I know your anger. I relate to it. Get angry all you want. Take it all out. Scream. Throw shit around. Smash a mirror or a guitar. It's all good.
DeleteDon't smash yourself. Because you have a few good, genuine people on your side. And that's all it may take.
- DMW
We all have our bad...i have been in and out of hospitals since bitth. I've never been good enough for my family...my friends are too busy for me. and now I'm a single mom of two beautidful boys who i don't deserve and i believe they deserve a healthirr mom. my ex says he lives me and wants me but I'm toi emotional and he doesn't know how to be completwly hapoy with me. yet he's the one who is never home does drugs and has a shit job. i can barely move some days I've had ups in my life but over all i don't want to be here i ceel everyone including my kids would be better iff without me. I've beeb abused wmotionally physicall and sexulaly I've been in two car accidents three open heart surgeries more to come i have a burn on my back massive concussion depression anxiety and digeore syndrome whig will eventually lead to thyroid mental issues and also leads to my lack of chin short statue over weight bad voice too I'm here cuz i won't lie i want to die but how worth it is it. I'm thirty I'm tired of being tired being lonely being sick being teased not having help expcept for when I'm I'm in the hospital and only for that time. i go home I'm alone again. i can't shower qithout fallinb i have noone and noone wants me...help me see something good. besides my babies because i won't lie i almost dies having them vlood clot burst in my lungs amd right leg on bed rest at four months sick as in my heart and hrough it both boys are healthy. one has autism whicg I'm scared cuz i have lil patience and my baby is all boy I'm all girl...like i said i feel they ceserve better than me... am i good enough
Deletei believe in god i was raised ina baptist home myvdad is a pastor qho ps has cancer and he gets all ateention i had a heart attack four weeks ago and noone in churcg or family cared visited prayed or said hi what can i do to help. NOONE
I am hernani sario jr from cagayan de oro, philippines. my wife left me. she is working in KFC UAE, dubai... bcoz ive of too much jelousy.. but I'm not doing something wrong... and she told me that enough is enough. last conversation. and rmmber that I am the reason why she left. we have 1 kid... im so depressed. I want to commit suicide. anyone can help me. if whats the best way
ReplyDeleteFocus on your kid. At least you got that. You have something real. And the world is not out there to get you. So make your kid happy and forget about your wife. Or anyone else.
Delete- DMW
Do you get to see your kid...ps your wife was probably your life. my ex was mine. i was preggo with my first baby qhen i met him r made me feel pretty spwcial and like i was good. my first sons dad left when i was four months preggo and i didn't see him til three yrs later when he decided its ok to be a dad. during that time my dad told me i couldn't recognize i was preggo tell the church or talk about it. my baby and i lived with my parents but i qorked i rode on a bus and i had a bad pregnany where i alsmost dies my dad still didn't care r said its my fault and id not gods way so i have to deal with it. i wemt back to qork three weeks after my first baby was born one yr later i lost my job cuz i couldn't work...i was pregnany again bed rest and itritablr and tired. thins happen so i understand I'm wondering too though do my boys deserve a mom who is sick ick sepressed anxious about life emotional can't hold them much cua i hurt too much...
Deleteif i can handle not vomiting, is this painful? will i wanna rip out my stomach before i pass out?
ReplyDeletei wanna die in TOTAL FUCKING PAAAIN!!!!IDONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE IM NOT FUCKING SCARED OF DEATH!!!FUCK THIS CITY FUCK THIS COUNTRY FUCK THIS FUCKING WOOOOORLD!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHEY TRY SUICIDE BY COP JUST BY A FAKE GUN WALK INTO A BANK AND YELL HOLD UP !!! BUT MAKE SURE THEY HAVE ON DUTY ARMED GUARD.IF THAT DONT WORK TRY A DONUT SHOP .
Delete"AnonymousJanuary 28, 2013 at 8:00 PM
DeleteHEY TRY SUICIDE BY COP JUST BY A FAKE GUN WALK INTO A BANK AND YELL HOLD UP !!! BUT MAKE SURE THEY HAVE ON DUTY ARMED GUARD.IF THAT DONT WORK TRY A DONUT SHOP ."
Yeah, right. And get bound to a wheelchair for life. Stop talking shit here and making fun of our misery. Bitch.
Me too. I guess I won't mind the pain if I'm a bit drunk. "The trick is not minding it hurts." And maybe it won't. But do you have to hurt in All Caps? Seriously?
Delete- DMW
i'm not depressed, i just want to go... i dont fear death, but i can't tie the ropes to hang myself.. i'm sitting here with these 2 bottles of aspirin.. if i had a gun,this would be over..
ReplyDeleteI feel the same i just wana go and forget i ever lived , im tired of the world but suicide is the only option for me but im terrified xxx
Deleteim terrified too, i only get peace when im asleep and hate waking up, if only i could go to sleep and not wakexxx
DeleteHell, me too. But I have over a billion reasons, and I guess I'm not exaggerating. When you guys have a billion reasons to die, go ahead and do it. Until then, give life a shot.
Delete- DMW
I am a 23 year old male, 85kg, how much do i need to take arpox?
ReplyDeleteother articles I've read said that this can result in just a very long, deep sleep. Doesn't seem like a very sure method. Still, it's what I'm going to have to go with due to a lack of alternatives. Wish me luck.
ReplyDeleteAre you still alive? How did it go??
DeleteDon't try this. It's not fun. My ears still ring to this day roughly. Two years later. You feel like complete shit can't lay down to rest can barely stand. And it'll take a while to work. I bailed and called 911. I was there for three days in the hospital basically getting water pumped into my system as the aspirin naturally came out of my pores. Then I lied to the psych lady who said my answers displayed that I read about psychology, but she had to clear me anyway.
ReplyDeleteShitty way to go. Makes drowning yourself sound peaceful
How many did you take?
DeleteBack in 1994 I took 52 aspirin (all I had). I never went to the hospital. Was deathly ill, vomited blood and got pneumonia. Ears still ring to this day. I lied and told everyone I had the flu while I was sick. I still have suicidal thoughts occasionally, but don't act on them and they pass. Went vegan, it makes me hate myself less, to think of someone else's life before my own greed. I don't participate in murder anymore, of animals or of myself. Love and peace, everyone, don't hurt yourselves. Life can be sweet sometimes.
DeleteHow much did you take before calling 911
ReplyDeleteI'm ready to die,I'm gettin all my affairs in order,I don't want to live with this pain anymore,I'm tired
ReplyDeleteMe too
DeleteI'm dying of a terminal illness anyway. My boyfriend just left me, I have severe depression & social anxiety disorder. I've just been told that I'm an embarrassment to my mothers blood. Have been thinking of suicide lately. I am in pain every day of my life, and I can't take any of it anymore. I wish it didn't cost so much to go to Switzerland, at least that way I'll know it won't fail & it'll be quick. I need a way of doing this that is quick and will work. Any advice?
DeleteMe to
Deleteill let you guys know how this one goes ;)
ReplyDeleteokay so what if i dont dissolve them in alcohol and just swallow 20 pills? if im 120 lbs, will that still work?
ReplyDeleteI really hate my life and feel like ending it is the best solution. I just don't know how to go about doing it. I need more options. My family has always and always will treated me like SCUM! Every freakin thing I do is Wrong! I've moved; lost my car since being here, my job, my phone, can't get in school, and I'm really starting to HATE the relatives I stay with but am stuck. I have no children, no spouse, no real friends, no hope, and no reason to live. What should I do?
ReplyDeleteIm right where you are, im popping asprin as i type, hell if ima die ima die with my fellow men and women who feel this way. If i was you id just end it. Life is shit and fucking sucks Fuck The World Peace. (FTWP)
DeleteI'm on lortab but they are numbered and being watch. i have asperin. how many can i take...i am fout foot elevan weight 160 trust me it sounds bad but i actually look kind of cute got boobs lol so how many i take ibuprofen every four hours and lortab every four hours...
DeleteI'm not gonna lie I'm still here crying ears ringing feel like shit...but praying i don't die. my kids and i need eachother too much. I'm trying not to go to sleep till late tonight and drinkin tons of fluids...hoping i actually don't die. life hurts it does we all have our downs bads and shits but if you can name one thing that's good pls live for it or them...mibe is my boys. their smiles thier hugs thwirs mom tjeir questiond thier wanting me andneed me. I'm stupid cuz i kniw this i know that if i die i won't see my kids at all and it scarws me. i love them with ll i am i love em...thank god i have them to live for
DeleteCall emergency - get to a hospital just to be
Deletesafe
My wife has left me due to alcoholism and other issues, I recently have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, I really just don't want to live anymore...I'm tired...I'm tired of fighting.
ReplyDeleteI'm going all out on my Trazodone, to hell with it. I don't want this anymore...
I hope you're still there. And if you are, I hope you feel better.
DeleteAt least you got diagnosed dude. the balance will come. And life will find a way. It almost always does. Try giving up the booze a peg at a time and see what happens.
Also if you're tired of fighting, maybe you should stop fighting. Just relax. Take a chill pill, and thank your lucky stars you're alone.
I'm never alone even when I want to be. And I have a multiple disorders no one can tell me straight to my face.
Oh well. Stick around. Live your life the way you want to.
- DMW
couldn't agree more -- hate getting it "wrong" but it's so true that 40-50gm isn't enough, and ignore reports that "staggered overdose" is a better way to do it -- even 52 gm had NO effect on me in a staggered form (4 days) -- so I guess it's on to aspirin next time (I've tried paracetamol about 5 times now)
ReplyDeletepills dont work. hanging or jumping off a bridge does for sure. brutal yes but so it has to be. birth was brutal too. no easy way entering or exiting life. guess thats part of the deal. but one things for sure. we ALL die one day anyway. so why doing it ourselves? if the doc tells us we got one month left to live im convinced we would all fight for our lives as shit as life may seem at the moment. depression sucks. society sucks. but life really is damn short anyway
ReplyDeleteI tried that i took about 60 or 70 asprins and the weird noises in your ears is true i couldn't hear when people were talking to me the pain was so bad i thought i was going to die also i was vomiting every 5 minutes after a few hours my vision also started to go in and out sadly i was admitted to the hospital but i'll tell you it's a hell of a way to die
ReplyDeleteI am in pain from hyperthyroidism. I am on the internet to find out quick ways to go. I was thinking about taking asprin, but I don't want to go through that stuff you talked about. Does antihistamines work to keeping the asprin down? I wanted to get help, but it cost too much money.
DeleteI'm planning on doing this with 200 pills 100mg each along with a bottle of 1995 champagne.
ReplyDeleteI'm planning on getting some antihistamines first though. seems the biggest problem is just keeping it in...
Is this enough?
have rented a little cottage in the country next weekend. gonna cook a nice steak, bottle of red, throwing the phone into the sea so i cant bottle it and call 999, 60 tramadol, 100 aspirin, 32 solphadine max and lie back with Les Mis playing....anyone any ideas how i can make sure i dont throw up and survive??
ReplyDeleteI've got 156 paracetamol, what else do I need? I want to this one thing perfectly.
ReplyDeleteplease anyone knows an easy fast way that anyone without a gun can do it tell us
ReplyDeleteothers please shut up no one need to tell anyone of us that life will be better or tell his story
just name the easy method & fuck off
Amen to that.
DeleteI haven't been mistreated,abused not an alcoholic,husband hasn't cheated on me..Haven't had to endure the trauma that a lot people have gone thru. Feelings of sadness have gradually got worse in the last 4yrs, I don't like this world we live in, too much anger,abuse,cruelty to people & animals I could go on and on, I try and see the positives but it's just not working I have a lot to live for even that doesn't do it for me.Would like to just fade away. I have had support& medication it just isn't working for me.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain. Every day I wonder "what's wrong with me? Why do I feel this way all the time?" I'm tired of hating myself and of being alone.
Deleteits a very cruel world we live in, i have gave up trying to be positive, feel so alone when i wake its another day of pain, i want to end it in a peacefull way, can anyboby help please ?
DeleteYes I'm the same no tragedy no abuse no money worries so what the hells wrong with me? Christmas eve and I'm on my bed drinking wine and trying to pluck up courage to take a big pile of meds at the side of me! Over it all it's too hards to live... Someone give me encouragement to do it please?
ReplyDeleteI've talked to everyone I know. My best friend, my brother, and even a stranger. No one tolerates me and no one wants to be associated with me. I'm 23 years old, I've been depressed for the longest time. I've gone through horrible shit in my life, but I still tried my best to hang on in any way possible. I even lied to myself that I'm happy. I can't keep this up anymore. I want out. I really want to just fuck off and vanish. I'm alone, tormented and constantly in emotional pain and no one has any idea how this fucking feels like. I've been there for every single person I knew, I tried my best to reach people, no one ever bothers with me. I have NO FUCKING IDEA WHY. Maybe I just have to be an asshole. People seem to love assholes. But unfortunately, I can't. Fuck it. I need to fuck off. If anyone can think of anything guaranteed, SAY IT ALREADY. I don't care if it's painful. I just need something GUARANTEED.
ReplyDeleteHey, are u still around? Let me know if u wanna chat. For some reason, ur post got to me.
DeleteHey, they say God helps.
DeleteDon't believe any of that. God don't help no one.
Sometimes doctors help. Mine don't. Not the way I want them to at least.
Make a list of horrible things. Then make a list of not so horrible things you go through.
Try to focus on the not so horrible things. There must be something that makes you happy. Like even a bit. A teeny-weeny bit. Try it.
If that don't work, please let me know if something else did.
Hope it all settles.
Hope I'm kinda still around to know. :)
Best,
-DMW
I am tired and exhausted,I cannot fight any more. I tried hard ,but I got knocked down again and again and again. I am preparing this carefully,no mistakes. Did extensive research.Only way to die peacefully is to fly to Lima in Peru ,where you can buy Nembutal over the counter. A couple of anti vomit pills ,two bottles of Nembutal and Bob is your uncle.Peaceful,fast ,perfect. I will fly business class there,that's my last treat in this fuck of a world,and stay at a 5 star hotel. Before the Nembutal I'll order a bottle of finest Bordeaux wine,and then the party can begin. I have given up to fight.
ReplyDeleteI'm tired of fighting everyday. I'm alone and I'm almost 20 and I've never had a girlfriend. I'm a lesbian living in the south. My parents think I'm a disappointment. I have no future. I don't want to live every day hating myself anymore.
ReplyDeletei am a hetrosexual male and live in the u.k ,but i have a few gay friends and have witnessed their struggle to "come out" in nearly all cases the pressure of family condemnation has had depressive results ,i read your posting and i feel for you,but dont you think that moving to a nicer place without your parents may lift the burden and give you a chance to meet like minded folks and a chance of happiness ,now i am not suggesting that you cast off your parents but in england we have a saying "a change is as good as a rest" try it you are young enough to beat this and build a future ,visiting sites like this will reap no answers for you where as taking positive action will,just take a little time to think about it honey, i wish you love,light and peace
Deletehey Iv had heaps of bfs and they all suck-i am alone now again and this is the last time turning 30 this year and i can face it not having what i want-sick and tired of trying to be positive when there is just heaps of shitty people in this shitty world
DeleteMove.
DeleteChange where you are. Give yourself a shot. You might be able to shake off the shit.
Take it from someone who can't...no matter what. No matter where.
Take care. There's nothing wrong with you. You'll find someone...you surely will.
Best,
-DMW
I hate my Life im tired of everything can someone give me a good,Way To end it all
ReplyDeleteim sitting here at my comp to wondering what would be a way that would actually work i have taken overdoses several times and just ended up in hosp on drips i dont want that i want to end it all for once and for all... i am 24 years old and i am very lonely nobody understands me at all i feel like i am by myself, i have been through a tough life and feel like i cant cope anymore it seems giving up is my only option left i wish there was a quick way to just go i would have pressed that button a very long time ago its not nice having no one to talk to, i get the blame for my family breaking up and my partner well i dont think he understands me what iv been through at all everything that has happened has mentally messed with me i feel so depressed i just want to die
ReplyDeleteI am here at my computer too. I have been looking up ways to go quickly. I am just tired of living. It just seems like everyday is just a struggle to live. I am tired of trying. I want to find an easy way out. Have you found one. This site asks if I'm a robot, before I can publish this. Oh, come on.
DeleteI want to live. I just.... don't want to live like this. Would the suicide hotline try to contact my parents?
ReplyDeleteI hate my life... I just wanna die to many twats in life. Iv taken 20 tablets how many more do I have to take ?
ReplyDeleteI am tired. I just want to sleep. Ive been feeling this way for a while now. I have a gun, but i dont want a brutal mess for my kids to walk in on..i have 5 of them..and a husband. Im so low in my life all i do is cry, my house is a mess my kids are always ignoring me and death seems to be my final option. Ive already written a suicide note. I need something fast and clean.. i dont want to change my mind.
ReplyDeleteI don't know of anything fast. I have od'ed with unsatisfactory results. I would suggest taking 500 pills of extra strength aspirin, 50 extra strength sleeping pills and 1 package of dramamine to keep it all down. I would take it all with alcohol. Begin with the sleeping pills and dramamine. After 45 min down the aspirin as fast as possible. The last time I didn't take enough. Not making that mistake tonight... good luck
DeleteARE YOU STILL AROUND? E-MAIL SONNE AT windnweels@gmail.com for a friend.
DeleteNOOOO!!!!!!! DON'T, PLEASE! YOUR KIDS AND HUSBAND NEED YOU!
Deletelooking for a peaceful exit ASAP with all materials and means necessary 50-year-old terminally ill ready to go if interested e-mail me mbaning2012@g mail . com
ReplyDeleteWho wants to die with me in south africa . Freemysoul200@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteYes I will! Lets go out with a BANG!! Together!! Have one last blast of a weekend and then.... you game?? -NuffSa:D (fix.getta@gmail.com)
Deletedying is good mmmkkay
ReplyDeleteMMMKKAY.
Deletetake it from me I am depressed never been loved by no one on this earth, I have been married kids none of them love me for I live alone I grew up in fostercare most of my life I have been neglected and forgoten. I have tried to commit suicide 5 times taking 200 pills many different ones ,there is a god and if he says its not your time to go it will not happen. I didn't go to the hospital I didn't tell amyone I was going to take the pills I just took them, and suffered for a yr. after taking them.and I new someone who tried to hang herself and the rope broke and other stories. if god has a use for you. you will not die.
ReplyDeleteNow Du it didn't work It Is REALLY HARD TO HAVE A FATAL OVERDOSE! Tried 9 Times & Spent 895$ In the process.
DeleteHAVE YOU TRIED POTASSIUM CYANIDE OR SODIUM CYANIDE? IF YOU CONTACT horneyproducts@yahoo.com and ask for mrs henriette perkins, you wont live to reply another mail on this site.
DeleteGoogled and found this site because I, too, feel I cannot fight my depression anymore. After 4 different antidepressants have failed, 7 months of therapy seems to have done nothing, and this major depression hasn't subsided in over 1 year, I simply feel beaten. I've tried groups, etc. Maybe I'm suffering from the after effects of lyme disease, maybe I'm suffering from the after effects of a brain trauma from a car accident, but unless you've been there, the pain of major depression is impossible to understand or describe. It's somehow comforting to get some clear advice from the writers on this website. After reading each one, for today, I'm going to take the advice of two of the them, go to church, and give life one more day. I understand what makes us kill ourselves and my heart and support goes out without judgment to all of us who choose to die or to struggle onward.
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ReplyDeleteI have recently taken 62asprin 16 paracetamol 10 night nurse caplets and feel no different in time will I feel effects ?
ReplyDeleteThis is all so sad and who is real?? I'm on here checking to make sure that I don't take too many aspirin because of an infected tooth and stumbled on this site. I don't know what to say to anyone. Have you thought of calling the Samaritans? There must be someone. Terminal illnesses aside, who have their own rationale, there must be people who care for those on here. I don't know any of you and I care! Have you tried to get someone to help? Listen to you? Some of you are so young. Life is short anyway; dying at your own had might not be the answer...
ReplyDeleteI HOPE YOUR TOOTH FEELS BETTER AFTER TAKING SOME I B PROPIN ABOUT 200 M/GRAMS SHOULD TAKE THE PAIN AWAY,BUT YUO WILL NEED TO GET THAT TOOTHE PULLED ASAP
Deletei just wanna die with any way possible i'm gonna try aspirin overdose with alcohol today, well if it works i will be free from this heartless world
ReplyDeleteBefore you do see Rachel of "Stirring the deep on u-tube.
DeleteThe spirit in her may love you just right.
if you contacT marktbusche@yahoo.es, you will find no reason to think death is far. He sends you KCN from Germany and that may help you quit this world quietly. You will not live to say thanks to him for helping you quit this life. just contact him if you can pay for the drug. JUST HELPING YOU OUT.
Deletehelium is a painless way for suicide
ReplyDeletecan it be bought over the counter ?
DeleteI inhaled a few balloons worth of helium and all that did was make me talk weird, nothing else.
DeleteI took 13 valiums and woke up a day later in a pile of vomit. I had excruciating pain in my stomach for about a month, but still alive. :-(
ReplyDeleteDeath? well i have lived a resonably good life..was raped a few times in early childhood, took a bath, got angry, thought it through, decided the criminals are stupid and my body is just flesh, got over it. Now, im just broke and stranded in Chile, S.A. no jobs, been looking for a year and no savings left. Im just of no use to anyone and i dont want to be a burden on anyone. God is very good, mercy lives in me so weather i die it will remain. i suppose i will just walk off into the north dessert here and run out of power, not really kind to inflict a damage on such a great body..i have a week or a month left if anyone wants to chat windnweels@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteBeat the kids, get a dog. go on a motorcycle ride and run away from home until an answer comes. contact me for any reason.
ReplyDeletewindnweels@gmail.com
trazodone is a safe drug. You cant overdose on the months supply of 50mg pills they give you for insomnia. All it will do is make you sleep for a few days.
ReplyDeletei am a follower of exit and have helped lot of people from the forum and besides it for a peacefull exit , by means of providing information on kcn or nembutal .. i have got a reliable source, just thought of sharing.....they have a page by name unique chemicals on fb . talk them into the dela if interested.
ReplyDeleteCan you help me get nembutal please, fluffykitty@tvstar.com
DeleteCan you help me?
Deleteivanbertrand@gmail.com
Hey. Can you help me too please?
Deletesrjsup01@myuct.ac.za
Sorry it's srjsup001@myuct.ac.za
DeleteYa'll pathetic! Stop typing your war stories to make people feel sorry for you! If you really wanted to comit suicide you wont be on this site to begin with! Just walk to your nearest bridge over the highway wait for a truck or something and jump off the bridge in front of the vehicle! If the 6meter drop wont kill you the vehicle will! Its all over in a split second... wont even have time to say ouch! Now go and stop talking about it!! -NuffSa:D
ReplyDeleteThat's why we are here you arrogant shithead. The last thing we want is to end up bound to a wheelchair or become mentally handicapped. If deadly poisons were readily available (like in the past) to make a peaceful exit, there wouldn't be any need for these websites.
DeleteGeezlikit.. How ironic that everyone here that wants to die doesnt have any money? Seriously is there anyone here that wants to die thats loaded and have lots of cash?? MMMmmmmm.... -NuffSa:D
ReplyDeleteI tried this with 100,000mg (1,000g), and it didn't work. Clearly, 30 grams isn't enough.
ReplyDeleteYou should email dr schenkov at horneyproducts@yahoo.com. I just wanan help. He supplies me with drugs for my house parties and he also supplies potassium cyanide which i use to wash my jewelry. just email him. he may help you guys. but i dont like the idea of you trying to commit suicide.
ReplyDeletecan i email him on your behalf?
DeleteIt looks promising yet it rarely works. I tried this one with 80 tablets, but all I had was nausea, vomiting, feeling extreme numbness and a constant ringing in the ears. I was lucky that I didn't have to go to the hospital for having my stomach pumped.
ReplyDeleteSo dear suicidal folks, take my recommendation and find another method to apply. But if you are very desperate, try it with about 150 aspirins and occasional sips of strong alcohol after eating a little bit of food.
Of course poor people have suicidal tendencies, money makes the fucking world go round. I'm fucking broke, but i got aspirin, vitamins (which apparently don't fucking work) and several knives in the kitchen. And i must say b4 i go, if u write more than 1 post on this site, you're on the wrong fucking site!
ReplyDeletei can beat your reasons.. my ex abused me for four yeas. now money bucks stole my baby boy....none of us know each others pain. just help me say goodbye and stop it. please.
ReplyDeleteHello Lori, I am a jewelry expert and got this product from a german supplier called mark. he sent me potassium cyanide and i cleaned my jewelry. his email is marktbusche@yahoo.es. he will not fail you as long as you make and order and pay for it. he ships to your address in 24 hours. just try him.
Deleteis this for real?
Deletei am glad horney distributions is saving us with this issue of getting good cyanide. but i wonder why he didn't want to ship to me when i told him i have a friend who wants to commit suicide. i had to convince them before they finally shipped the kcn. here: horneyproducts@yahoo.com. buy cyanide from them. i saw his address on this same blog and contcated and now, my friend has his.
ReplyDeleteI can not even talk about it anymore. I m so tired and just want to rest . This to be over, over, over.....
ReplyDelete60 aspirin, 10 sleeping pills and a bottle of vodka. This will do the trick. I know it works because i had a friend do it this way. I am doing it now. Happy that i will not be posting to say whether or not it worked because i will be dead. :)
ReplyDeleteDid it work?
Deletego peacefully friend
Deletei feel so alone like no one is there for me. My mom calls me a piece of shitmy dad calls me a bitch and my sister hates me. what is the point of liveing if nobody wants of cares about me
ReplyDeletesame here :(
DeleteWould anyone like to leave this earth with me? I mean, we spent most of our days here alone and in pain....we shouldn't have to spend our last moments here the same way
ReplyDeleteI think I feel better as I read these posts, but I also know I am again going to feel like shit pretty soon.. I wish someone just kill me when I am asleep.. I can't attempt another suicide I am afraid to take my own life to be honest....
ReplyDeleteNo one should kill themselves. Please, if you're feeling suicidal, seek help from mental health centers. Pray to God, asking for His help, and I promise you, He will answer you.
ReplyDeletedo dis seiusly work??? or is just a prank!
ReplyDeletei already consume 40 tablets of asprin Will it work .....???
ReplyDeleteI tried taking an overdose of aspirin, apart from feeling incredibly sick, it didn't work. I'm 5ft 10stone (fat I know) 16 asprin (300g each) is not enough, more are needed, just a pointer
ReplyDeletehorneyproducts@yahoo.com supplies the best cyanide for you. they ship to any place. email them. me, i wash jewelry. they supply to me everytime.
DeleteI'm Searching For Ways To Cure A Toothache & Find This ! You Guys Need HELP . Find A Friend . Go To Church . Pray . You Can Even Talk To Me . I'm Not Perfect . My Childhood Wasn't Easy . But I'm Still Here . If Y'all Stop Being So Ignorant & Open Ya Eyes You Won't Be Feeling This Way . Go Find A Fucking HOBBY . Go Get A JOB . Find A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND . Watch Porn . Just Don't Take Your Own Life . I Believe In Jesus . And The Wages Of Sin Is Death . Killing Yourself Will Result In Eternity In Hell . I'm Not Judging Any One Of You But Please Reconsider
ReplyDeleteI'm not religious, I don't believe in hell. I genuinely don't even want to be on this earth anymore. killing myself would stop the pain, I'm putting myself through pain with my own thought and its torture. I just want to die ! People like you obviously don't understand what me and others like/worse than me are feeling like!
DeletePeople Like Me ? I Went Through Neglect . My Mom Was A Crack Addict . She Died When I Was 9 . I Don't Know My Dad . I Was Just Raped Last July . Do U See Me Trying To Kill Myself ? Not At All . Life Goes On . Suck It Up . There's Always Other Ways . But Whatever . Kill Yourself . Have Fun
Delete"AnonymousMarch 14, 2013 at 1:41 PM
DeletePeople Like Me ? I Went Through Neglect . My Mom Was A Crack Addict . She Died When I Was 9 . I Don't Know My Dad . I Was Just Raped Last July . Do U See Me Trying To Kill Myself ? Not At All . Life Goes On . Suck It Up . There's Always Other Ways . But Whatever . Kill Yourself . Have Fun"
Don't believe everything you see or hear. There is nothing wrong about suicide. Mass-religion is perverted and distorted just like our society.
im ready 2 go...im so tired of actin like im fine and plasterin a fake smile on my face...im not afraid of death seein as how ive died b4...drowned and got brought back..but i am afraid that i will fail and b stuck here in worse shape..im thinkin bout gettin a gun with my income tax but thats 2 long..i want 2 go now with it bein foolproof...so if i were 2 take pills and sum pepto would that get the job done?
ReplyDeleteSome people on here " pray to god" where the fuck is god when I'm ready to die! Where is he when anyone is going through a hard time, he's a load of bullshit and about as real as the chance of the sun turning pink! Bullshit!
ReplyDeleteHe,s right there waiting for you to call to him. He has all the love in the world for you. You only need to start talking to him. Read his book, the Bible. His spirit will open you up to reach him. Only takes a tiny bit of faith and you will begin a relationship with him.
DeleteLife is hard. Death is imminent. I believe in life on the other side of death. I don't want to spend my next life in hell. So I have given up my suicide attempts and with the help of my medication and love of God, I have found joy. Life isn't perfect. I'm not rich but I am happy. My prayer for you all is that you will find healing, love and joy as well.
ReplyDelete"AnonymousMarch 12, 2013 at 3:19 PM
DeleteLife is hard. Death is imminent. I believe in life on the other side of death. I don't want to spend my next life in hell. So I have given up my suicide attempts and with the help of my medication and love of God, I have found joy. Life isn't perfect. I'm not rich but I am happy. My prayer for you all is that you will find healing, love and joy as well."
Do you want healing, love and joy? Then educate yourself and do something about Cannabis oil and stop preaching your propaganda here. No prayer is going to get you healed. Cannabis extracts, cannabis oil using the Rick Simpson method is what's gonna heal you.
I'm scared this is me right now.
ReplyDeleteHi guys I'm 20 and to be honest living is becoming less of an option, im not going to bore you all with my ins and outs but I've had enough and I'm fed up of having my heart broken I hate my job also in the next month I will probably try aspirin and tie a plastic bag over my head so if the aspirin doesn't kill me but only knocks me out I'm sure the plastic bag will finish me off, what do you all think do you think it will work?
ReplyDeleteDude don't. Find someone to talk to who believes you, believes in you and whom you can believe in. If you can't find anyone, then, only maybe then try it. If you get past this, maybe you can get past anything in the future.
Delete- DMW
I'm going to blast 2 12 gauge shotgun shells into my head tonight I wish u all well with your attempts cianara
ReplyDeleteI don't think you will, otherwise you wouldn't be posting here. Any government agency can retrieve your IP address and put you under surveillance and you know that. Do not use this forum for your sarcastic comments.
Deletepersonally i have been stocking up pills for an overdose and ya many can argue that it is the coward's way out but i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and i am never going to stop the pain it'll always come back i've hallucinated and i can't tell whats real anymore the one person in my life who was always supposed to be here for me is gone....fucking liars besides i'll be rotting in the ground while my "loved ones" will go on living it won't matter and i wish i had a gun it seems the easiest ugh does anyone want to give me advice i need a for sure plan not a vomit and wake up plan and i dont know how to tie a noose or lynch or whatever
ReplyDeleteit's not a coward who tries to kill himself you have big balls
DeleteOkay, picture this, what if you find out that the entire freakin world hates you. What's more? You hate yourself. What do you do?
DeleteAnd talking about being bipolar, what if you know there's something wrong with you, but the doctors you go to only throw obtuse shit at you that you totally cannot comprehend?
If you're not there yet, don't try and do anything stupid. It's not worth it. Life will get better.
i want some one who can love me, nothing else ,
ReplyDeletei don't have my mom , i am 23 ,
and when move out side home every time control self ,
i want girl friend to love ....
but when i look toward beauty,
i close my eye very tightly ,
and then it creates bad impression for her.
i have not taken water from yesterday morning ,
and still searching for any idea to Commit suiside,
i am not a good son of my Father,
I am Over Confident Speaker ,
But From Heart i am very small yet ,
in Office i have not excpeted myself that i'll work in that much less salary .
Before this i was thinking , i was thinking when i ll earn some money,
i will start persuing my Post graduation ,
i dont want to stop learning in my LIFE,
I was thinking to take some personality development classes,
i am Music Person i am having one givson Guitar gifted by one Priest,
but it is very Difficult to play having very long gape between strings and fret,
thats why purchased 2 Flute in 100 rupees one is A scale second one C scale,
have books of classical music ,like playing whenever have free time ,
and feel myself CALM, have some books of phychology also (Common MR.baron),
when i was giving my first interview i'd started telling about my hobbies,
they were also taking me Over Confident,but littrally saying when i share my fealing with someone
then i can see people loughfing in my situation and PLZ.....help me
https://www.facebook.com/DhyaneshD
I don't mean to be rube but why do promote suicide?
ReplyDeleterude* my apologies.
ReplyDeleteThere are so many people here saying they've done everything, they've tried religion and doctors and still want to die. Do you think that maybe there IS a way out? There is always a way out. Death shouldn't be what you turn to when there's "no hope".
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ReplyDeleteI think its everyone's right to decide to live or die this is a shitty world we live in and GOD is a spitefull end vindictive GOD why should we please him in hanging around and get fucked by life every day I have tried a couple of times and everytime unsucesful now i am looking for a sure thing dont want to be here anymore its not worth the pain !!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThink I need out of this world. My life has just hit a brick wall. Yesterday I lost my job today my husband. Can't see a way out, what do I need to take? I love my hubby dearly but there is no going back. I need to make sure this isn't another mistake
ReplyDeleteIt may seem hoppless, but there are better days ahead. I've tried asprin 45 years ago. A week in hospital, 90 days psych ward, then life got better. Tried again 26 years ago. Jumped from a bridge into a frozen river. Middle of bridge, figured the currant would take me from the entry and there would be no turning back. Upper free bridge over Illinois river in Peoria, Il. Missed chanel by 30 feet, broke thru' the ice, feet stuck in mud, arms on top of ice, where I remained for what seemed like hours. God said "not yet". The last 8 years I have been spending time with my grandchildren, teaching them things that are important in life and helping them overcome things they feel can't be overcome. This was my reason to survive. I have also been suffering in the end stages of emphazima, but helping me gives them perspsctive. I will soon end my suffering, but with the support of my family. There are so many options if you keep trying in life, and only one when you give up and it will always be there in the end. Fill in the middle. Peace and Love to all. Rick ararbee@hotmail.com
DeleteI lost my job several years ago. Did not even realize it then.
DeleteYou have your husband. You have the sense to seek help. It'll come. Trust in yourself. At least you can do that. Take it from someone who really can't.
- DMW
buy potassium cyanide from marktbusche@yahoo.es. he ships to you and he has quality. my mom buys from him to wash jewelry.
ReplyDeleteIf you all wanted to commit suicide you would stop complaining about how you have nothing, and you would do it already.
ReplyDeleteHow can anyone say suicide isn't the answer when they don't know what ur living with
ReplyDeleteI took 20 pain relievers last night. All that happened is my visions messed up and I feel like I'm going to throw up, but I never do. I'm 16 and 112 pounds. I decided I don't want to die yet...but will this kill me? My stomach hurts and I'm pretty shakey.
ReplyDeleteBut, if god has a purpose for me like a lot of you say, he won't let me die. So Iguess its really just a matter of waiting to see if god has any use for such a useless teenage girl..
Hi from Somerset in the UK. Its my day to leave this world tomorrow and I look forward to whatever the afterlife brings. Take care guys and girls x
ReplyDeletewasted my time .......... u guys are useless ............. someone help me die
ReplyDeleteOmg rightt!?!?!!
DeleteTried to hang myself and when it got to the point my face felt like it was going to explode instinct took over and i climbed up the rope guess i need to tie my hands or something i wish i had a gun
ReplyDeleteIve got endone, endep, pristiq, panadeine forte; tramadol etc. About to make a salad and say "good night". Wont miss much but then again, fuck you all. You know who you are. Thanks for not understanfing, listening or caring. You live in your ivory towers, not knowing your a murderer.
ReplyDeleteMy life is close to perfect. I have 2 loving parents, friends, money, suport... but all I want to do is die. I feel like a worthless fuck and I hate myself for it. I don't want to hurt the people in my life but my depression is taking over me. I've tried the meds the therepy... but its not working. No matter how hard the beautiful people in my life try I don't feel better. Its not fair to them or myself. I want their efforts to work. Hell, I want to be self sufficient. But I have no energy no motivation and no meaning in anything. I'm tierd of feeling like this when I shouldn't. I don't deserve to be here. Or maybe I don't dereve to end my suffering... fuck.. good luck guys. If its a friend you're looking for I'm here.
ReplyDeletei'm in the exact same boat as you. i don't know if i'm being selfish by wanting to commit without having a terrible life. i just always feel so numb and miserable and alone and i just can't deal with anything anymore
DeleteThanku -gooooodngt I pray
ReplyDeleteI want death also. Im tired of living. I operate day by day but too much pain and loss this past few years. Im planning it for the end of the year just before xmas. cant stand to go through another xmas alone. Pills and booze seem a good choice. Im okay with some pain.
ReplyDeleteI thought about starving myself to death but am too weak as I know hunger would make me force feed myself. I feel liberated knowing there is an end in sight. Make everything neat and tidy in my little house. Shower then go to bed and after that do what I need to do and then nothingness.
hi I have no job and am bankrupt and I have nothing else for me in this world that I can survive on. I need help. Anyone who knows where I can buy potassium cyanide in the US. I have no money to waste. please help.
ReplyDeleteI feel alone just wanna end it all...im gay this life sucks like really the one that I was close to was my dad which is now die things was looking up but now they no lose my job going to be losing everything I have. Just want to end it all now. I want to end it when im asleep any ideas
ReplyDeletehey im with you guys, we all have our demons inside that are taking us over, do you think the cyanide would make it thru customs in australia ? its my life and im the only one who can make the decision if i want to live or not.. but i too have had enough i fel i dont have anything to live for and that GOD put me on this earth for notung more than to torment me
ReplyDeleteI tried to commit suicide when I was 17 by ingesting a bottle of Aspirin. I just got really sick and was throwing up for 3 days. A week prior to that I held a loaded 38 to my head but I was drunk and I didn't want anyone to think I was drunk and making a rash decision. I even stopped smoking weed because I didn't want anyone to think I was high at the time of my suicide. When I was 20 I finally reached the point of no return. I decided to jump off a bridge that I had walked over a year prior when I had to walk home because no one would give me a ride. On the way I stopped to try to call my ex to ask her to help me but I had no money and her phone didn't accept collect calls. I told myself it's a sign and that it was my time. I proceeded to walk to the middle of the bridge and I jumped off. Instead of dying, I broke my leg in two places and fractured my back in two places. For anyone that says that life gets better, I say to them i'm sure it does for most people but not for me. I am now 32 and there has not been a day that has gone by in over a year that I didn't think about ending my life. I've talked to psychiatrists, so-called friends/family members, I started attending church, I tried taking medications, I tried exercising, I even went back to college and earned two more degrees. I have 3 college degrees and I can't even find a job. I've been turned down for the lowest of the low jobs including: janitorial, production, landscaping, and I even got turned down at a job sorting garbage at the dump. I always tell myself that this isn't living, if all I think about is driving my car in the river or jumping off the Auburn bridge then how could this be living? All of these years that people say that I've been alive to me it's all of these years I've been slowly dying. For anyone that says i'm just taking the easy way out, do you really think it's easy to go through this "life" as you call it only wishing it was over? I'm not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me or feel pity on me. I'm just telling my story from my point of view.
ReplyDeleteWD
this so wrong and sick....people please listen to me that life gets better, stick it out and be patient, its so worth it!!
ReplyDeleteCan't you just give here some practical info, not only crying and telling your stories.
ReplyDeleteWaist of time. If somebody knows a good and reliable sources to obtain nembutal for expample, please post it!
horneyproducts shipped me legit nembutal. i paid and received it. contact them via horneyproducts@yahoo.com
ReplyDeleteDoctors don't help. Family doesn't care. Friends can't know. I wish the dog understood. Can't figure out why life is so awful? Maybe you're the only one who has any chance to change it.
ReplyDeleteYou deserve someone to talk to... 1800-273-8255
ReplyDeleteI don't care If your want to kill yourself go ahead and do it I tried. but before you do call a friend or text them or something. When I tried to kill my self my friend text me an stupid smily face. I was soo pissed. I threw my phone then she texted me more called my cell then my house several times and came to my house Would not stope ringing the door bell bitch. She got in through the window and found me.
And it was all over her math book that i stole
I have 15 Oxycodone 5/325 and 54 Restorils 30mgs. I want to take them, but I'm afraid I will vomit them back up and wind up with a damaged liver and kidneys. Then they'd put me on suicide watch.
ReplyDeleteWould this be enough, or should I add alcohol?
fuck i'm reading these comments and i just feel even worse
ReplyDeleteeveryone here has a valid reason why they want to commit and then i'm just here with a perfectly decent life. i have clinical depression though and i try so hard to see the good in life and be happy but it never works and i just try SO HARD. every day i wake up miserable or numb to emotions and i can't help it. my parents dont believe me and they think its just a phase im going through in adolescence but its not. i just want to kill myself but i feel so selfish compared to people who actually have terrible lives. can someone please just help me out? am i being selfish? i just cant do this anymore
I don't have a home. I move around a lot and always seem to be living with people I don't know very well. I don't want someone I don't know to find my body. I want to feel like somebody cares, that they'll be upset. I'm so lonely. My heart is so heavy. And they have no idea.
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